Perspective...

So, there is no doubt that it is extremely tough to lose both of your parents to cancer. Seeing my Dad's body deteriorate before my eyes sucks! But then I have to think...at least I have a Dad. Not only do I have a Dad, but he is an awesome Dad! He has taught me well, always been a great example of working hard and being honest, and cared for me and loved me my whole life. Just the other day I went to get my oil changed at a local car place here in town that my Dad's friend owns. I walked in to pick my car up and pay my bill and the guy behind the counter, who I had never seen before in my life, picks up my keys and lays my bill on the counter. I chuckled a little and asked, "how did you know who I was?" His response made my day...he said, "Well, a strong bull has good stock. Does that tell you?" I smiled and said, "Absolutely!" :)
And then I also think to myself...my trials today are absolutely nothing compared to what the people in Japan are handling right now, or orphans in Africa, or even a bunch of people here in the States. I still have a place to live, there is food in my refrigerator, clothes to wear, amazing support from friends (Thank you!!!), and a wonderful family...immediate and extended. I still say I cannot imagine going through this without my siblings. Thank goodness we have each other!
And for the happy news from my last post about the house...well, we can't get it anymore. Boo! We were pre-approved for a pretty big loan and then they sent it to corporate and corporate said Ben has to be employed for two years. So, we are putting that on the back burner and looking at rental property now. Whenever Ben told me, I just broke down...pulled the car into a parking lot and cried! I was soooo excited about this house. It was perfect for us right now, so I was definitely irritated, frustrated, bummed, etc. Thankfully, I have come to terms that it is ok that we won't buy a house right now. We can use the money that would have been the down payment to pay off student loans. Oh, how I love student loans. Or we can purchase another car since we only have one and Ben is driving his grandmother's minivan that probably won't be running in a few months. So, we'll just rent a house for a year or two and then buy and build or something! Everything happens for a reason, right???????????? Such is life!